I am embarrassed

After a long break from blogging, I think this is the best confession to make- I have been trying to avoid feeling embarrassed. I have been thinking of all the people out there that would be reading this blog and think I was silly, dumb, or arrogant. But this fear is what this blog is going to be about.

When we continue to protect ourselves to save face, are we stifling our success? Are we so concerned about our image that we don’t say what’s really on our mind? Are we so fearful of being judged that we opt out of events? Are we so afraid of going after what we really want that we end up sitting in our own shit?

Batgirl, my cat, my inspiration for life, has taught me a valuable lesson. When she wants a piece of turkey she hops right on the counter and takes that shit. She doesn’t get inside her head and think about the fact that she shouldn’t be on the counter or that the food isn’t for her - she just does it. Animal instincts baby. I am so jealous of this. I feel like I think about all the reasons something is wrong, rather than making an action plan and snatching what I want. Batgirl also doesn’t worry about the humiliation she might endure if I push her off the counter and she doesn’t get her turkey. It seems like there is no concept of failure built into her mind. How can we, as people, have this?

What I have found what works for me- I remind myself to act in LOVE & FAITH. This is my way of lessening my concept of failure. It may sound lame, but let me explain. Why not think of ourselves in the best way possible and believe that good things will come to us? For example, if I get in a fight with a friend, I choose to return to the idea of love & faith - I know I love my friend and I have faith that she will see my love. Or if you have a job interview - remember that you would love this position (or love the money) and have faith that the company will see your love and love you back. It sounds hippyish, I know, but if you can choose your thoughts, then why not choose to be optimistic about yourself and the world around you. And lets just say your friend doesn’t forgive you, or that you didn’t get that job… once again come back to the idea of LOVE & FAITH and see that the world has other plans for you.

With that being said, I am having faith that my readers find me lovable, I am going to continue to channel my inner Batgirl so that I can get what I want out of life, and I am basking in the happiness of blogging once again.

“EMBARRASSMENT IS A POINTLESS EMOTION THAT ONLY SERVES TO CONFUSE AND OVER EXAGGERATE REALITY”

“When I feel FEAR, I choose instead to LOVE”