no need for a quarter life crisis

While taking in my 10 minutes of sun (I try to sit outside and let the sun hit my face for at least 10 minutes a day... has a lot of great health benefits and helps you sleep better at night)...

... I realized I am 22.

My dad yells at me for being an age-ist (not sure if that is a real word, hence the hyphen)... because I am always shocked when I hear a persons age and make some overly judgmental comment about how old 65 is!!!

And when you really think about it, who gives a fuck about your age. you always hear people saying you are only as old as you feel and bla bla bla. and o you can be young at heart and stay young forever. but this is not my revelation.

my age gave me relief. i thought about how much i had truly accomplished for really only being able to talk coherently for a mere 20 years. i mean think about it, most of us have written "scholarly papers" (lets just pretend those papers were thought out and well researched), we have built lasting relationships with people who were nothing but strangers, we have drunkenly sung karaoke and in the same night still managed to get home safely to our beds, and we have planned and re-planned adventures in our attempts to seize the day. and i think it is time we give ourselves some credit.

we have done a lot. and I know I freak out thinking WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE.

but i think we are already living it. and doing a pretty damn good job.

so relax.

"go make a life, not a living"

and what about this- --- there are 40 year olds out there that are still running a muck and haven't figured out their "way" and then BAM in one year everything falls into place and they are in their state of flow at 41 !!! holy shit!!! 41 !!!!!

but who cares!!!??? that was just the way it was supposed to happen for them and now at 41 they are sublimely happy... and i am sure they wished they hadn't spent all that time worrying about when their life was going to come together. just have faith that it will. because it will.

just relax.

"all human wisdom is summed up in two words; wait and hope"

"success is blocked by concentrating on it and planning for it. success is shy, it won't come out while you're watching"

now go RELAX.

just wave

One time I was in the car with my dad, and we stopped at a stop sign and there was some random guy standing there, and my dad waved. I was like "DO YOU KNOW HIM?!?"

And my dad casual goes... "fuck no".

(keep in mind I was 6)

Then he says, "who gives a fuck, just wave, it makes people feel special".

I think about this all the time when I lock eyes with people. So I wave (or usually just smile). And its like why not?! Sometimes we are so insecure and caught up with how we might look, so we don't smile at someone because we don't want to look "crazy".

How many times have you thought, "wow that person is so dumb" just because they randomly smiled at you? really? are we that delusional that we think a smile is going to trip someone out?

Smile at everyone you see. Wave at anyone that looks like they could use it.

"every smile is a direct achievement" - (found this one on my yogi tea tag... very good tea btw you should try it)

"The best advice I think I could give is to just keep moving forward, and don’t give a shit about what anybody thinks, just keep moving forward and do what you have to do for you."

— Johnny Depp

when your day is fucked up and rotten

meh.

today was just fucked.

but you know what made me feel better. . .

crawling into bed and listening to jack johnson, bubble toes. haven't listened to it since senior year high school probably. and it made me reminisce about high school and i thought, "wow those were the days when things were easy"... everything was planned and perfect and tied in a little bow. and now things are just fucked up and sloppy.

but i don't want to bitch about it because you know...

some days are just fucked.

just embrace your bad mood. soak it up. mope about it, cry, throw your phone at the wall, whatever floats your boat. and then you will get sick of it.

because you can only be pissy for so long.

i read this really crazy book about "owning your own shadow" and it is about balancing the good and bad in our lives. the "shadow" represents the dark corners of our personality that are pushed off to the back burner to only be revisited when we are in a bad mood. It is at this time that everything comes rushing out because darkness can only be contained for so long. some days you just have to let the bad come in. recognize it. and let it ride.

the key to life isn't thinking everything is wonderful all the time, it is about balance. its ying and yang. light and dark.

find the bliss in your shadow.

once you take in the bad day. now its time for the wave to take you back up to happiness.

ride the wave.

trim the fat

don't worry this isn't about loosing weight. so read on... :)

attachment with people is a beautiful thing. to recognize closeness and companionship with someone is a blessing. but what about when that connection fades? should we stick it out?

there is no blanket answer. the only thing you can do is be honest with yourself.

trust your gut. you know deep down the answers to everything. you are not confused, you just don't want to believe what your gut is telling you.

If there is someone in your life and you are putting up with them because of comfort, or guilt, or selfishness, you've got to trim the fat.

why do we stay in limbo for so long between when we know its over and when we actually let them go? we linger around hoping it will be different, why?! lets just cut the bullshit and bone out. there are better lovers, friends, objects, everything is out there. this may sound harsh, but get over it. you will eventually cut that person out of your life so why not just approach it with courage and do it now. welcome the opportunity for someone new to positively affect your life, and stop clinging to the past. experience the world today, not how it was yesterday or how you expect it to be tomorrow.

you can only change you. no one else. so be the agent of change and move forward with your life and leave the others in the dust.

...sorry this post has a little bit of bitch in it, but some days I just have to lay it out there ;)

"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours".

"There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy."

Sometimes the sun shines on other peoples houses and not mine

Everybody has their time in the sun.

Let the person in the spotlight have their time.

Because you will have yours. and it may come in a different form, smaller, or bigger, or whatever, but wait for it. there is plenty to go around.

look at someone doing well, and tell them how awesome it is that they are doing well. because next time you look you will be around people recognizing your success and you will be basking in the sunshine.

this is a wonderful moment for that person. and if they are your friend then be happy that you know a great person doing wonderful things in the world. and if its your enemy... stop. it is jealously that is making this person your enemy. if you recognize people for who they are then you have no enemy. you are your own enemy. you have placed the burden on someone else to carry all your insecurities and fears. tear down these destructive thoughts and be happy for all those around you who are thriving.

"Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself."